Yesterday I was broke. Here Today I am lazy.
The day that I was born, my sister became my mother and adopted me as her very own living, breathing baby doll. The fact that she was only two years older did not get in her way. She went about her task with fierce determination, meeting my every need before I needed it, doing everything for me that I could not do for myself. She continued her mothering duties well past the years when I was old enough to do for myself. Not surprisingly, I earned the reputation for being lazy because for some odd reason, I simply didn’t bother to do anything for myself. Imagine that.
I won’t give her full credit nor blame for my well-earned lazy reputation, because chances are that I showed up in life with lazy as my middle name. Nonetheless and even so, in her well-meaning mothering helpfulness, she facilitated the process and sealed the deal. Lazy I was.
My family claimed that I liked to get up earlier so I could loaf longer. Efficiency experts agree: If you want to get something done, give it to the laziest person in the room because she will find the quickest, easiest, fastest way to get the job done. So true. Efficiency equals longer loaf time.
If there is any truth in my belief that we arrive here on classroom earth with a fully loaded curriculum specifically tailored for our soul’s growth, then I was parked in the perfect family to help me realize and understand my need to overcome the obstacles that I brought with me into the classroom. Broke and lazy.
But here’s the good news. Like two sides of the same coin, we also come equipped with the wherewithal and the way to grab our demons by the tail and fling them over the cliff of self-doubt and fear. We have the ability to gain mastery over ourselves and whatever beliefs we hold that cast a shadow over the joy that is our inherent birthright. It’s all a part of the journey toward wholeness.
Easier said than done, one may say. How do you erase the pain of the past and heal old, worn out belief systems that stand in the way of personal peace and happiness? How does one answer such a question in the Reader’s Digest version of a lifetime quest?
For two years I held a grievance involving a husband and a friend. Not until I was able to see the profound damage that I was doing to myself by my unwillingness to forgive did I begin to realize the benefit of letting it go. Incentive and willingness became the key. Dear God, I want to forgive, but I don’t know how. Please help.
Sometimes it helps to take a “what’s in it for me” approach. Focus on the donut. Seeing the benefit can provide the energy that fuels the desire to make a change, even though doing so may be uncomfortable. Every situation is different. Every solution is different. Every soul is a wise teacher with our best interests at heart. Follow your heart, ask for help, listen to the teacher, study hard for your tests, and a diploma is your sure reward.. It isn’t easy, but it’s always worth it. Godspeed.
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).