This morning I parked myself in my Lazygirl with an ominous sense of quiet dread that mid-afternoon might arrive before I even started writing today’s blog. What shall I write? What can I talk about? Has the well run dry? I sit. I wait. I listen. Nothing.
An unsettling thought silently creeps in. I’m staring down into the donut hole again. Somehow, I’ve slipped into uh-oh territory without realizing it. I wake up, look around, and here I am again, like it or not. How did I get here without my permission? I have no idea. All I know is that I don’t like it.
It might have been a gradual slip that occurred while I wasn’t paying attention. I may have inadvertently allowed myself to dip into the sneaky, dark inner recesses of my mind that takes great pleasure in undermining me, that distracts me from my path and purpose. I might have been listening to the wrong voice again. Yep. I might have done that. Note to self: Be vigilant.
The light goes on and I realize—oh. This is what I write about today. I’m back now, with the opposite problem. There is so much to say in 600 words or less that I don’t know where to begin. Or end.
I could talk about lights that go on in the dark, or about the importance of developing an up-close and personal relationship with one’s inner self, or about having a sense of knowingness that all is well, or of faith, guidance, or grace, of awareness, or of being woke, as they say these days—I’m not quite sure what that means, but I guess it’s a good thing.
Out of all of it, what has been the most important aspect for me is developing an inner relationship with my soul, the part of myself, that loves me as I am, supports and guides me, that supplies grist for the writing mill, and above all else, redirects my attention back to my path and purpose when I lose sight of it, when I am at risk of tumbling headfirst down the donut hole.
In the midst of the world crisis in which we are living, there are donut holes everywhere I look. They come in all sizes, shapes, and forms, and their name is fear. They involve us personally, and they involve the world in general. If we allow it, we’ll all find ourselves clumped together in a heap at the bottom of the hole.
But wait! Before sinking down into the hole, stop and think for a minute think about how powerful you are. Think about the fact that there is something within you that contains the wisdom of the ages. Think about your ability to turn on the light within yourself to lift yourself out of the darkness, and in the process, light the way for others.
For a brief moment this morning, I forgot who I was and found myself sitting alone in the dark fretting about the subject of today’s blog. Now, as I come to an end, I am reminded that there is within me, a voice of wisdom that is always there for me, offering the quiet assurance that there is nothing that I need because I have everything, and that all I must do to hear it is sit down, be still, and listen. There is no crisis that is too big for the power within.
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).