We survived Hurricane What’s-Her-Name (who can pronounce Isaias?) and its demise was amazing. Howling winds and water every which-way suddenly stopped dead and turned off like a faucet cutting off the cold water, while the hot water faucet turned on the sunshine. It was quite astounding—a wonder to behold. No lingering aftereffects whatsoever, if you don’t count the poor folks left without power and the accompanying tornado.
I wish I could do that with my attitude. I’ve been doing more than my usual amount of soul searching lately, sifting through the debris of a mind cluttered with a whole bunch of stuff that I’d rather not have to see or acknowledge. The willingness to delve into the depths of the soul is not always an adventure for the faint of heart, but hey—in my world, it’s what makes life worth living because it’s where I find the really good stuff once the not so good is cleared away.
Amidst my morning ponderings of such things, I came upon an email that smacked me in the face with the mother of all annoyances—being given unsolicited advice and/or told what to do, particularly when I already know what to do and have every intention of doing it. Sigh. What is that, exactly? Is it because I assume that the perpetrator thinks that I am not savvy enough to figure out something for myself? Do I think my intelligence has been insulted? Am I the only one who gets her knickers in a twist about such things?
The howling winds of ego swirl around and threaten my peace of mind, pummeling me with a flood of unpredictable, uncontrollable fury. Maybe I react so strongly because I am blind to the possibility that I am guilty of such behavior myself. Maybe my head is stuck in the sand again about all sorts of behavior that I’d rather not see. The lingering aftereffects of such an ego outburst leave me feeling powerless over my own wayward emotions.
Well, maybe I’ve plucked just a little from the Writer’s Handbook of Exaggeration for Effect. I confess, I’m not really as out of control as I make myself sound. As a matter of fact, I’m pretty cool most of the time, which is why, when something comes up that twists my knickers, it catches me off guard and seems worse that it actually is. It’s just that as I travel along the path toward spiritual enlightenment, sometimes dirty laundry pops up to be washed and hung out in the sunshine to dry and blow in a gentle breeze for a while. The part about squeezing through the wringer can be a little ouchy, but once I make it out into the light, a whole new joyous and wonderfully delicious world awaits.
One of these days, the winds will diminish to a gentle, calming breeze and I’ll realize beyond a shadow of a doubt that my light is lit by the Source of All That Is and that there is nothing in the world that can turn it off. Every now and then, I catch a glimpse of what lies ahead, and trust me—it’s worth every ouchy. Howling winds and lingering aftereffects vanish are replaced by power beyond measure.
Somewhere along the line, I must have signed up for the journey of a lifetime, and amidst my travels, I have discovered that it truly is the only trip worth taking. It can be a pretty wild ride, but I have some very reliable, devoted, tour guides who will never leave me, nor let me lose my way, even when I stop somewhere along the way to stick my head in the sand. How blessed am I?
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).