I frittered away most of my writing time this morning, but oh well—there’s always later with lunch in between. One of the things that I’m learning in my time-out is to quit picking on myself about petty stuff. No, wait. Make that quit picking on myself about any stuff. It’s not good for the psyche. In a world where criticism about one thing or another is wildly abundant, what’s the point of adding an unhealthy heap of it upon myself? The rest of the world will be happy to do it for me.
Running away to solitude is a lovely temporary solution to remove myself from the world stage, but unless I’m prepared to repair to the wilderness for 40 days as Jesus did, or take the Buddha approach to enlightenment under the Bodhi tree, or cart myself off to an isolated mountaintop somewhere, eventually, I’ll need to return to the outside world. Do I want to? Well, not really. Not yet. I kind of like it here in the cozy container of my own home talking to myself and enjoying my own company. It’s a lovely little vacation away from anything that makes me cranky and it brings me peace. It parks me in a place where I am learning that the only judgment in my corner of the world at the moment is my own.
Sooner or later I will need to emerge from my cocoon, but until then, I’m hanging in here until I’m fully cooked. Or at least until my wings are strong enough to carry me through whatever storm might be brewing in the outer world once I decide to make a break for it. I don’t know what’s coming, but I know that I’m going to need all the strength I can muster to make it safely to a space of quiet calm.
What a great process. What a great opportunity to be in the world but not of it, to be able to sit back and watch the show without being a part of it, exempt from the drama, judgment, and the need to find a safe haven from the voices of personal opinion that separate and divide one from another, that perpetuate fear rather than love.
What a joyous vacation. What a sanctuary for the soul. What a gift of Spirit. How blessed I am to be able to enjoy it. My wish for humanity is that we all find the safety within the quiet of our hearts and rest there in gentle stillness for a while.
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).