Uh oh—it’s 9:00 a.m. and I haven’t even started today’s blog. In a perfect world, the publish button would have been pushed by now, but hey—who said anything about a perfect world?
I’ve been fishing around hoping to catch a little inspiration, but sometimes those fish just aren’t interested in offering themselves up as food. Sometimes inspiration strikes as I read the posts of other bloggers and sometimes, I just get lost in their insights, awareness, and stories. Today was one of those days. Their inspiration inspires me.
The Inside Scoop, a newsletter that I write for my condo building, is due today—well, maybe it’s more of a half-blog-half news sort of a thing. That means that today is a two-publication day. Double the pressure, double the fun. There is not much juicy stuff to fill a two-page newsletter during a pandemic, so sometimes I have to fish for inspiration for content for that as well. Once in a while, the thing becomes a cross between a make-it-up-as-I-go venture, and a rambling stream of consciousness thing. The folks seem to enjoy it though—at least they haven’t fired me yet. Maybe that’s because there’s no one else willing to do the job for free.
Inspiration is an elusive sort of thing. Sometimes it just presents itself as a welcome gift, sometimes it doesn’t. Why is that, I wonder? Oh, I know it’s in there somewhere, but why is it that on some days it is easily accessible, and other days not? Have I become so stuck in a rigid writing routine that I’m afraid that relaxation will knock me off balance and out of control? Am I in even in control in the first place? As for the balance question—well, maybe it’s best just not to go there.
I used to gather inspiration from a simple walk in the neighborhood. An encounter with a squirrel could elicit a range of emotion starting with pure joy and happiness then morph into rage and anger in the space of twenty seconds. Finding a wasp walking around inside my purse could bring about both fear and relief in less than fifteen. A blister on my heel, a piece of chewing gum stuck on the side of my shoe—who gets gum stuck on the side of a shoe? Inspiration in unlikely places, all grist for the mill, all an opportunity to take tiny little nuggets of life and seek to find within them something amusing and/or meaningful.
Those musings of many years ago eventually morphed into a book that became the birthday gift dedicated and presented to my mother in honor of her 100th birthday. It was a joyous moment for her, and for me. But that’s another story in itself.
Maybe I need to get out more. Maybe the pandemic has left me bereft of the external stimulation that I need to get the creative juices flowing. As I sit tapping my fingers on the arm of my chair in both anticipation and anticipation, the light dawns. There’s nothing external about it. It’s an inside job. Like the Scoop, I can go with the flow and make it up as we go.
There is nothing that I need that I do not already have. It is all hiding within the recesses of my very own being, waiting to be discovered, waiting to be released out into the world. The keys to unlocking the door are faith and gratitude, but those are subjects for another time. Until then, may your day be inspired, may you have faith to know that all of your needs are met, and may your heart be filled with gratitude for that you have and for that which is yet to be.
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).