Oh my. The day is half gone—well, not really—it’s only 8:35 am but I’ve been up since 5:30 frittering away time. Well, not frittering, exactly—it’s been productive, but still—even in spite of still being confined at home, the hours seem to cave in on me and before I know it, the day is over and I’m left wondering where it all went.
It’s a funny thing—before I retired and hung up my working duds for the very last time, I was really concerned about how I would keep myself busy for 20 or 30 years without a job to keep me occupied. Oh, silly me—what did I know? Whoever said that “life is alike a roll of toilet paper—the closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes” got it right. The faster I run the farther behind I get, even with nowhere to go.
So much to do, so little time. When the world reopens and we’re living our new normal life, how will I be? Will I lunge back out there again in the hustle and bustle of it all, running around like a rat in a maze searching for the cheese? Or will I be sitting at home in my Lazygirl sucking my thumb hoping to never leave home again? Is there a balance somewhere in between? I don’t have a clue about any of that yet, but it behooves me to figure it out soon because someday the world will be open again, and when that happens, I want to have a game plan.
This at-home time has brought me the awareness that if I don’t “do lunch” with friends several times a week, I won’t die from it. The world will not end if I have to get in the kitchen and cook a meal for myself. I don’t have to answer the phone every time it rings, or respond instantly to the emails that flood my inbox. If I run out of eggs or butter, I’ll make do. Toilet paper and coffee—well, that’s another story.
I want to crank up the energy to do the stuff that I’ve been putting off by using the too-busy excuse. I want to find the balance between writing a daily blog while also getting a grip on the rest of my life. I catch myself in the act of wasting precious time and I don’t want to do that anymore. I want more paper on the roll, I want to expand time. I want to increase focus on doing what is good for me—exercise, eating a proper diet, meditating, resolving to strive for a higher and higher awareness all things spiritual.
I want to resign from the world of perpetual doing and move into a state of beingness because out of that glorious state of being, time expands and the doing becomes effortless.
So that’s my story. How are you doing? Have you figured it out yet?
Note: The photo above is courtesy of New Waves of Light, a website designed by anonymous individuals around the world who share the intention of bringing light and love to a world of darkness and chaos. (newwavesoflight.org or NWOL.us).